A Quarter of a Century

I’m twenty-five years old today, a quarter of a century. Wow, that’s seems so weird to say. Twenty-five years old and I think I have my life figured out… well, most of the time. Dealing with the usual stuff a 25-year-old goes through on top of that let’s throw a disability into the mix. A mild case of Cerebral Palsy to be exact.

When I was younger I had a theory that if I kept praying to God and wishing on my birthday candles, shooting stars and 11:11 that one day I would wake up and my legs would work “perfect” after all birthday wishes only happen once a year and seeing a shooting star is rare, so it has to work, right? I thought that the way I walked was just temporally. “Okay God, I’m ready.” I used to say to my praying beanie baby bear, like magically somehow God could zap me in the middle of the night and I’d be fine. I can remember lying in bed curled up in my twin size mattress bundled under my blue Snow White comforter. I remember the excitement I had thinking that tomorrow would be the day that God would take my Cerebral Palsy away, all because I made a wish at 11:11.

Well believe it or not, that wish never came true. Shocker right? I did this for years before realizing that this is me, it’s not going to change. Trust me it took me years to come to terms with my disability and trust me I mean years, but once I realized that, life got easier. I finally decided that I was blessed to have the ability to walk with my limp rather then not walk at all, the day I came to terms with that was the day I finally started to thank God each and every day to allowing me to walk and have the inner strength that I need to thrive with.

In life everyone has two choices that occur over and over again in every situation that life throws your way. That is to be positive or negative, to look at the glass half full or half empty and that choice is one you can only make for yourself. Now I’m definitely not saying to be happy go lucky or to take your positivity to the extreme, but that is just what works for me.

I have Cerebral Palsy, it would be so easy for me to have a negative mindset, and always think bad thoughts. I could sit here and complain and tell you all the negative things about having Cerebral Palsy or I can sit here and tell you how having CP made me a stronger, caring and a more determined woman. Now, I’m certainly not going to lie to you, I definitely have my times of weakness and will complain about my sore muscles, or how the cold is making my legs tighter and stiffer. I’ll think to myself “why me?” but then I remember God doesn’t give you things that you can’t handle. I may struggle a little more then some, but I am blessed in so many other ways.

I do truly believe that I wouldn’t be the same girl without having CP but I also think that I was given this life for a reason, maybe the reason is to share my story of going through life with a disability and how I dealt with those uncomfortable situations and to show younger boys/girls they aren’t alone, everyone has a battle that they are going through.

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11 Comments

  1. Jean
    January 8, 2017 / 8:41 pm

    I am so proud of the woman you have become. You give so much faith to so many through your words & wisdom. I love you dear granddaughter. As I always say, be happy, be healthy & be blessed. And that you are, Jess.

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  3. Michelle Strange
    January 16, 2017 / 2:23 pm

    Thank you for sharing and putting it out there! My daughter has CP and today we celebrate her 13th birthday! She is a rockstar and I will have her read this as well!

    • eyelinerandempowerment
      January 20, 2017 / 12:27 am

      Thank you so much, tell her I said happy birthday

  4. Dawn
    January 22, 2017 / 3:45 pm

    Love this! It really brings back a lot of memories! So proud of you each & everyday! Love my girl💪🏻💚

    • eyelinerandempowerment
      January 22, 2017 / 5:59 pm

      It definitely does mama, I love you more!

  5. Krystal
    January 26, 2017 / 11:02 pm

    My daughter was recently diagnosed with CP at the age of 2. I love hearing about strong determined women who have CP. Thank you for sharing your story!

    • eyelinerandempowerment
      January 27, 2017 / 12:32 am

      thank you so much for the support!

  6. Kike Adeyeye
    February 25, 2017 / 9:59 pm

    Thank you Jessica for your post it really encouraged me to be the best that I can be.I have CP also.I can actually relate to this.So happy I was able to reach out to you.You are an inspiration.Keep them blogs coming Jess💝💝

    • eyelinerandempowerment
      March 3, 2017 / 9:50 pm

      Im SO glad you can relate to me, I for sure will keep the blogs coming… follow me on my other social medias I post a lot on there as well. Remember to always stay #CPstrong

  7. August 13, 2017 / 5:08 am

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